dead then finals

we only have one more real week of school left then finals week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so completely ready for school to be OVER with and for SUMMER to begin.....

such a long semester, glad its near its end. well, there will be sad things about the school year ending, but for the most part, i am welcoming summer with wide open arms

the only thing about end of the year is that projects and papers are due and have to get done. so there will be lots of horrid paper writing and horrid project making being done this week.

such is life

singing...

singing in front of people is one of the most horrifying experiences of my life!


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yeah

the end

remember when...

remember when that internet at harding was being stupid and everything was slow and things werent working half the time...yeah that was annoying

other than that...

remember when you wanted something you couldnt have? something that was close enough to touch, but there was a sign up saying you couldnt?

remember when you opened your fridge and it smelled like chinese food, and you realize that very soon that should be thrown away? that just happened like, 5 seconds ago.

remember when something finally hit you weeks after its actual occurrence?

remember when spell check was giving you crazy words as possible solutions to your misspelled word?

remember when you had a fun dinner with someone, and wondered if you would get a chance for another?

remember when you had a really good weekend?

i do.

so this weekend was just like that. it was a good long weekend. not necessarily the most productive school work wise, but the best weekends never are. although, i got enough school work done.

this has seemed like quite a long semester. i am getting ready for it to be over. it has been a good semester i suppose. lots has happened. lots has not happened. but i am ready for classes to be OVER! i am ready for summer to START!

on a lighter colorful note

so that last post was apparently kinda intense....heehee

ehh. sometimes i cant help exploding whats on my mind, but its all over now and things are cleared up where they werent clear before and so thats good

right now we are on piper tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i just LOVE PIPER TOUR!
i have been looking forward to this tour for a long time now. pretty sure the week before the musical (show week) i reminded myself every day that not too long from then i would be in oklahoma with the pipers having a great time playing with each other and with kids.

and that is what we have done!!

and it has been great!!!
we have had soooooo much fun!

i could sit here and write about all the great times we have had, but there just arent ways to fully express how it feels to play for kids and be with this extended family of mine, and just be surrounded by so much love and support and joy :-)

love to all of you who i call friends, i adore you all and i am soo soo very blessed

The woes of romance…my opinions on crappy situations lately

Tonight has been interesting…and has been one of those nights where you just kinda wish the whole romance thing in life was settled and figured out so you could just be happy and in love and that be the end of it!

Who decided that other people had the right to tell you that you weren’t allowed to like the person you liked? Or weren’t allowed to be with someone if you wanted to be with them? Especially if they had mutual feelings?? (I mean, unless they were doing it for genuine concern for your physical safety and well being I suppose).

I don’t think it is fair for someone to take someone else’s happiness away from him or her. No matter how many times they say that it will be ok and they will just get over it. Especially when you know it won’t be ok; and when you can tell that they are hurt by this sudden decision of yours! I think you should also know your friends well enough to know when certain things will and will NOT affect other parts of their lives no matter what happens!

If you like someone then like them! Especially if you know that they are returning the same feelings. Especially when they are making you happy. Happy about them, happy about life, just plain happy. Certain things are rare, and finding someone who immediately clicks with you and gives you joy is one of those rare things that you should hold on to and not throw away because of other people’s opinion on the matter. No matter who the other person is. People have their right to try and find that joy.

Also, who decided that it was ok for someone to string you along and place you in the middle of crappy situations that you wish would just be figured out and settled already?

If you like someone then like them and drop other stuff that might be there with other people! If you aren’t sure of the feelings you have for that person then take a long hard look at what you have and be completely honest with yourself on whether its what you really want or not. However, do NOT put someone else in the middle of all of it and make him or her feel horrible for being this “stumbling block” that has you confused. Love is not an ultimatum!! Just because you break a relationship off with one person doesn’t mean that other person is going to be right there and willing to be everything that you wanted and more. And it also shouldn’t be the reason you break something off in the first place!! You don’t break up with someone you supposedly love because you think that someone else might be better! That’s not even why you THINK about breaking up with someone! It doesn’t have anything to do with anyone else, either you love someone and think that you want to spend the rest of your life with them (if your even at the point of thinking that), or there is just something that keeps you from being fully committed to them. That’s it, no other reason!

ARG!

And there was other stuff that I was going to rant about, but then the Nanny came on and I got distracted and I just gave up on trying to exert it all out on this blog.

Sometimes people are put into crappy situations that they shouldn’t be put into and its not necessarily fair they are put into them sometimes.

That’s it

Sorry if you actually read all of this

bed time, goodnight